2/9/10
Well my friends, what a week I am having and it is only Tuesday! Already I have issued not one, not two but three ultimatums in defense of myself. I don't know what the final drop in the titration was that turned my liquid feelings of discomfort to rock solid knowledge that I was being totally taken for granted, used and abused, but it must have been a doozy.
Two of these incidents are work related and frankly aren't causing me much pain now that I have had my say. After 40 years in the workplace I've pretty much seen it all.
One of these incidents is personal in nature. I still consider it unresolved so the pain factor cannot be quantified. A person I have dearly loved for over 12 years and lavished much upon in gifts, material and more important by far spiritual, has mistaken my kindness for weakness for maybe the last time. We shall see.
My mother gave me lots of advice, some good, some hilariously bad and all well meant. Her favorite saying (used mostly when referring to relationships with the opposite sex, but also for more general situations) was, "Cyr, never be anyone's doormat!" If she is looking down on me from heaven she is rejoicing I am sure in the fact that her baby girl has dusted off the footprints and stood up for herself.
Here is what I think. While it is true that you can be your own worst enemy, make double damn sure you are your own best ally!
1 comment:
I was my own worst enemy for many years. This is because I was afraid to vocalize my feelings and beliefs. As I got older and had many more experiences, it wasn't easy, but I started to let my feelings and beliefs be heard. It doesn't mean everyone needs to agree, but it does give you a sense of freedom within yourself. I guess this is called individuality and this is what makes us interesting in our own ways. We need to respect people and their different ideas.
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